I left hospital today feeling relieved and somewhat satisfied; this was the first time since Charlotte had started radiation. I am not sure whether it is because it is Friday and Charlotte has two days off from this process or simply because today Charlotte’s treatment and recovery was well-managed and she recovered well. After another good chat with the anaesthetic doctor today we had doses of medications covered, a contingency plan for recovery and meds ready for sedation to help Charlotte out of the delirium. The doctor agreed that it was important to address the frontal lobe disturbance, which is the main issue, in order to overcome the emergence delirium. Following almost half an hour of aggressive behaviour the delirium began to escalate. So, the nurses organised the charted sedation and it took two doses to turn her around. The type of sedation chosen not only stopped the ballistic behaviour but revealed a good recovery with little behavioural angst or edginess. We now need to look at which plan of attack and what medications will be best for Charlotte for the next four weeks.

So, Rod and I will need to consider the best plan for Charlotte who needs to be safe, calm and as well as possible for the remainder of the treatment. I am hoping for a repeat of today or better. I felt like I had not let her down today and the staff worked hard to assist. Thank goodness for the perseverance of some of the recovery nurses, Charlotte’s clinical nurse consultant and the outstanding anaesthetic doctors.


Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: you don't give up. Anne Lammott


Rod and Beck xo